Friday, August 9, 2013

Inner Healing - My Potter's hands

As I gaze into your Holiness....... As I look into your loveliness..........

As I continue gazing into the light that surrounds my Lord...... I sense the peace that comes from knowing him....... My heart feels full of his light...... and his light increases.......... love emerges.............. I feel full of his presence.........I bask in his presence...... there is nothing more relishing than being with my Jesus..........Everytime I spend time with My Lord........I savour his presence more and more.....the joy of being with My Lord increases the zest in me.........I thank you Lord for being with me and helping me to look with your eyes into those dark recesses of my being..... thank you for helping me to dissolve my fears..... my anger...... my negative state of mind........all my wrong beliefs.................... I feel confident to now renew my mind with your truths........the knowledge of your kingdom........ and your will helps me to walk further into areas of my life which need the showers of your presence............

Gazing into the eyes of my Saviour and holding his hands I now walk in his light to the area of my life when I am about to move from my mother's womb into the world.........

Maybe I was premature child/or my mother's body was not able to contain me and opened up...or I was underweight or a big baby...........maybe I felt so so safe..........that I didnt want to leave my mother's body....... or maybe my mother did not experience any pain and had to be given medicine for inducing labour.......or my mother's fear of childbirth tightened her cervix and hence I was trapped...... Maybe I was sucked out through a vaccum.......or I passed urine/ feces in the womb in fear.........or my mother went through a prolonged labour.......maybe she was tired........or all alone and my father could not be there with her........or maybe there was a threat to her life........ or the doctors had to do a c-section to help deliver me........ or I was in a breech position........perhaps the doctors who handled me were not gentle........ the sudden brightness in the room could have hurt my eyes...and shocked me.....or there was too much noise....maybe I did not cry immediately and so was handled harshly .........maybe my mother was too tired........ or  no one was around to feed me when I was hungry...... 
All these feelings of abandonment, rejection that have been stored up inside of me, I now choose to release and set myself free........ I see with the eyes of faith My Lord- The Potter of my life standing with me all the while and holding me in his arms....... Take me Lord, mold me Lord, use me Lord, fill me Lord..... I give  my life into my Potter's hand....... 

Monday, July 22, 2013

Inner Healing:- My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

May showers and showers of love and peace and joy descend upon you........

We have read about the creation of the world in Genesis, the last weekend was on ours.....
We would continue to pray for the time we spent in the sacred place of our creation this weekend as well.
The beautiful time we were breathed and watched over by the Lord himself into our mother's womb.
Once again there is a script as a guide, which can be changed or added according to what is impressed on your heart by the Holy Spirit.
Praying for another person would mean substituting the I for someone else's name.

Once again, I encourage you to persevere in prayer all throughout the week and the weekend. If there is a specific area you would like us to pray as a team, kindly get back to us. We will include it in as well.

Those keeping the vigil are-

Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress.                                     He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad that the waters were quiet and he brought them to their desired haven. 

May you have a spirit filled healing.

Night Vigil:- Inner Healing for Self - womb

Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved: for you are my praise.

I grow silent, knowing that the Lord is going to be in my midst. Today once again I want to hold your hand Lord and go to that stage when I am still being Knit in my mother's womb. I walk with his Staff and Rod holding it aloft to clear the darkness of my mind. I walk knowing without turning around that the Spirit of the Lord envelops me. I walk in the purity of his light and Love...... I walk towards my experience in my womb...... I walk to see me sitting inside the sacred place of my creation- My mother's womb. I walk in the guidance of his presence knowing that I am going to set myself free from all that was unknowingly transferred to me by my mother.

My mother was probably not prepared to have a child......... or she felt very sick after conceiving me..... or she may have had fears about her pregnancy........ or the doctors said she was going to have a high risk pregnancy/ complications......... or she may have already had my brother/sister and wanted a boy/girl........
She may have had many fears since this was her first pregnancy.... or she may have miscarried/aborted earlier...... or the doctors may have said its going to be a difficult pregnancy....and suggested termination of the pregnancy..... or she may have attempted to abort me...... or she was anxious constantly about  how she was going to taking care of me....... maybe my father lost his job....... or was into gambling.......and my mother had to work to bear the financial burden of the house.........Maybe my father was working long shifts and my mother was alone at home........  Maybe there was a death in the family.....and my mother was numb with shock......Maybe there were constant fights between my parents....and my mother wanted to end her life.......Maybe my father was  abusive (physical, emotional, verbal).....and had violent outbursts of anger... or he was very dominating....... or was chasing drugs/ alcohol....... Maybe there was not much food for my mother to eat...... or she was not given food......... or she felt like eating very spicy food............ Maybe she was not strong physically to carry me full term and needed bed rest and constant medical attention........ All of these emotions of fears, worries, concerns, frustrations, anguish......... were felt by me even though I was still very very small.......

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Inner healing - For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.

Dear Brothers and Sisters,
May the Good Lord shower his peace and blessings on all  in abundance!!!!!
After the wonderful vigil that we had last weekend, it was felt that we now need to explore the most important area of our life which we often have very little or no memories about. 
The time we were breathed into our mother's womb.... the moment of our conception........

There is a script for those who were confused or not clear on how to go about with the process. You could refer to that script or make up your own. The script is titled for self, all you have to do is substitute I for someone else's name to pray for a healing for the other person. 

When I was asked why do we need to pray for another person, well the LORD himself in John 15:17 commands us to love one another and the greatest gift or love we can give another person whom we do not know or have never met is the gift of prayer especially of healing. 

James 5: 16 
Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you maybe healed. The Prayer of a Righteous person has great power as it is working. 
Once again, continue persevering in prayer even after the weekend is over. If while praying for someone the Holy Ghost touches you/ reveals anything to you, kindly share it as your feedback.  
Those keeping the vigil are-

Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress.                                     He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad that the waters were quiet and he brought them to their desired haven. 

May you have a spirit filled healing.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Inner Healing - Prayer for self

As I still the wheels of my thoughts, I now put all my attention on spending this time with the Lord. This time with the Lord is very important because I am going to open myself up to him like I have never done with any body in my life.
I know my Lord knows everything and has been knocking on the door all the time. I now choose to open the door and let him enter my heart, mind and soul. Every part of me welcomes him............
He enters with his light. I can feel...... as though I am being flooded with light.............

I sing "Pour out your Spirit, Pour out your Spirit on me. Pour out your spirit, Pour out your spirit on me. Spirit move in your temple...... Spirit move in my life.......Spirit move..... I am calling.. Spirit heal........I am asking. Spirit fill me with your love........ I need you....... Pour out your healing, Pour out your healing. Pour out your healing on me. I am pleading......

I can feel you all around me Lord.... I can smell your fragrance..... the sweet fragrance of the Lilies of the valley with the morning dew on them fills me.........

I will now walk with you Lord, I will hold onto your rod and staff for comfort.
 I now walk with the lord as he leads me to those areas of my life that need his soothing touch. I begin my journey as I feel the power of his love sending me into a house.......... of my earthly parents.
My beginnings on this earth.....

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Breath of Life:- Benefits

Then the LORD God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.
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The Lord God created a man from the dust of the earth and made that lump of earth alive by his breath!!!!! 
What a significant event in the creation of the world and its inhabitants!!!!!

And how much of attention do we pay to this involuntary process that begins with the creator breathing his life into us. 

The creator knew how forgetful his created being was going to be and hence thankfully made this process involuntary. Imagine what would happen if he did not make this process involuntary. 
I have recently been meditating on this Gift of Breath that was so easily bestowed upon us and have realized how this simple process of In-inhalation also called as Inspiration brings rich benefits if focused upon correctly. It can lead to a transformation from a disturbed or dis-ease state of being to a state of well being always, every minute, every second of our life. 

Some well known scientific facts of the process of inspiration (in-halation) and expiration (ex-halation):-

Inspiration begins when we take 'in' air through our nostrils expanding our diaphragm (filling our lungs) as a result our stomach also expands to accommodate the lungs which are filled to its capacity.  
Expiration involves the expanded stomach to now push the lungs to expel the toxins in the form of carbon dioxide thereby contracting the space that was expanded. 

1) Focused or Diaphragmatic breathing leads to gentle massage of the internal organs especially the liver leading to better functionality of these internal organs. 

2) As the lungs are filled to their capacity while breathing, more oxygen is taken in leading to better circulation to various parts of the body especially the heart and brain. This improves clarity of thought and enhances the ability to make decisions. 

3) The gentle massage to the internal organs leads to the pancreas regulating the sugar levels. 

4) Expulsion of the toxins from the body leads to stimulation of the digestive organs, improved metabolism and thereby a surge in energy. 

5) Improves movement due to the availability of the oxygen to help build and repair the muscles and joints mobility.

If this process alone brings to life to all our internal organs then why is it that we are far from experiencing the abundance of life that is intended for us. 

Saturday, May 25, 2013


"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." 
 Its been a long time now since the New year that I have been meditating on what the
 Saviour meant when he spoke about Peace to the faithful gathered around him.

Why was I struggling to get that Peace. After going through a very painful 

experience early this New Year, I have longggggggggggged for that peace. 
Why couldn't I get that peace which he gave so freely.

-That peace which St. Paul says surpasses all understanding.

In other words the peace of Christ which holds its reign on all thoughts 
and keeps everything else captive during all times.

So, I began my journey in search of peace........ started reading the bible even 

more voraciously, meditating on his words even more forcibly and started 
praising and singing his name as loudly I could (thankfully within the 
confinements of my mind).
Often I would reflect on the episode of Jesus calming the sea and wondered
 why he didn't calm the storms which were ravaging in my mind all the time.

Aha and then came the day when he rewarded me......... and rewarded me 

richly indeed that his peace has been filling my heart every day since.

I had been sick for a whole week with an upset stomach. So my husband 

decided to take me to a local mall for a breath of  fresh air only for us to
 be blown over completely (we are still blown over by that experience).
 We walked into this huge mall and made our way to this fascinating store 
which we visit very often...... sometimes we just browse through the stuff and
 deliberate whether we need something and sometimes we pick up something we like.
Everything is sold at a premium price and the board that follows you across 
that fantastic store is 'If you accidentally drop anything, you pay for that damaged
 piece as well.
So,  I make sure that i am tagging along my husband and panicking every time his
 hand stretches to hold any of the delicate glittering glassware or articles in the 
store. I know how powerful the law of gravity(especially in my hands) is and 
 hence have no questions in my mind to prove its existence.
I kept constantly nagging my husband "Please don't pick up". Please keep it back".
We decided we needed soup spoons and so we picked them up. My husband
 had the spoons safely ensconced in his very sturdy hands and was striding 
confidently to the counter to ask the manager to bill them for us. I was 
striding behind him as confidently as I could and would have reached the 
counter within seconds but -
I (Eve) saw this lovely box with cookie cutters inside. I picked up the 
forbidden fruit instead of asking for assistance. My husband (Adam) was
 not interested in what was glistening in my hand. He asked me to  put it 
back and follow him. Since I didn't want to replicate the garden of Eden
 experience. I promptly put the article back on the shelf to happily trot 
behind my husband.
so much for obedience....... so much for it.  I had barely turned to follow 
my husband when lo behold         a thundering crash..... the temptation 
that I had got momentarily enticed with ..... had decided to fall!!!!!!!!!!!
Who was the serpent in this frame if you ask me - IT WAS MY OVERSIZE BAG!!!!!

All of a sudden I felt  the ground beneath my feet tremble (rock and roll!).........

a sea of people gathered around me. I lifted my eyes (shock embedded within) 
saw (gulp,gulp) the storm on my husband's face.
(Trivia:- Believe me  my husband has never looked as handsome as he did on that day,)
 I could see different colors blending and a dark red tinge spreading all over his face.
          I looked down to see two store helps gathering that miserable piece to
ascertain the damage caused by my (OVERSIZE)Bag (the serpent).
People around me whispering (at such times, the internal audio works very 
efficiently, otherwise I can be quite deaf)- that piece is very expensive!!!!!!!
 they will have to pay for it now!!!!!!.

Inside of me I was crying (sniff) -Where are thou My Lord? I am in the 

eye of the storm.............  My boat is sinking...... (boooooooohooooooooo)

In the midst of this tumultuous situation (inside and outside of me). 

A sudden infilling of ..............Peace, Serenity!!!!!!
The store helps continued with their scrutiny of the piece and could find
only a small chip on the lid of the box with other things being intact.  They
 pointed it out to me and  I reached to take that chipped box in my hand once again,
(My wacky sense of humor surfacing in full blast. My mind was playing with
the idea of setting up a cooking making venture..... Naming the venture:- 
Mel the Cookie-Man,,,,,,, Cookies of different sizes were floating in front of my eyes.......)

Suddenly I heard Him.......Yes i heard him whisper.... What did I hear him say-

                                         "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do

 not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and
do not be afraid.

 I took the chipped piece and asked for the price. I walked to stand next to my
husband, whose face revealed that the Storm in him had not abated (gulp gulp).

At the counter the manager came to bill us for the purchase we had decided 

to make and also looked at the fallen piece carefully...... She was still inspecting
 the piece when my attention was diverted to the right side of the counter. 
Something was glittering there!!!!!!!! I turned to look and saw colored soup spoons!!!!!!
Though I am not a kid but something about color always captures my attention. 
I love color in all forms especially the bright colors - pink, blue, red, orange, etc.
all colors! (Now you know why I found my stormy husband so captivating to
 look at...... that day)

As, I reached out to grab the colored soup spoons, the manager watching my

 delight struck a conversation with me. "These are break -resistant M'am".
 I smiled at her and looked at the ones we had picked up earlier and she smiled
 and said, "Those are not."
My husband who usually deliberates a lot weighing the pros and cons, didn't 
take long to weigh anything this time. (He was burning red hot coals inside
you see!!- what color aha!).
Before I could even turn and look at him with inquiring eyes I heard him say,
 "We will take the break resistant ones even though they look like the ones kids
 eat their cereals with."
So, I decided I wanted all four spoons in different colors. Unfortunately they had
 only three colors in the size we wanted (there was a red soup spoon but it was 
very tiny).

Time for the Bill now......

The manager started marking a bill for the purchase we had made. She examined
the chip on the box (the fallen box) and said that it was a small chip and we need
 not pay for it.

I turned to see my stormy red husband and what do I see!!! His color is changing

 once again from the lovely dark red to his natural shade of brown.
A song starts playing in my head - "Raindrops are falling on my head... plop plop....
(this is incidentally what plays whenever my Shirley and I are having an intense
 discussion on the phone, she will suddenly go on hold and both of us will be hearing-
 Raindrops are falling on my head).

The manager goes on to say that people usually fight and refuse to pay and we were

 very sweetly agreeing to pay for the piece. She thanks us and we thank her back. 
So we walk out of the store with our (colored) break- proof soup spoons and with a 
big glow on my husband's face (color change without any facial).

As we are leaving the mall, my husband (who has now come back to his original

 self) shares with me that he was wondering all the while what we were going to 
do with that chipped box of cookie cutters. I very gleefully start elucidating some 
of the wacky ideas that had surfaced in my mind during the time I should have 
covered myself in fig leaves........

But from that day I have only been able to count my blessings constantly. 

I have not stopped thanking God for my Agape Family who have been with
 me in prayer and spirit whenever I have asked for assistance and even when 
I have not asked for any assistance. I truly believe its only because each of you
 that I am able to be in a state of gratitude today. Thank you each one- Shirley, 
Tecy, Tara, Divina,   Elizabeth, Jeevan,Sylvester, Saveen (anybody part of Agape-
 in case I have missed out anyone) for being a part of my life.

Even my Husband who has extensively traveled and lived all over the earth says 

he has never experienced something as wonderful as this. He said (in his own words)-
"This truly is a Miracle and we have only the Lord to thank for this experience."

P.s:- The next day was Sunday and the Gospel reading was :-

    Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you

as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.


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